Make a start.
Sometimes that is the hardest part of doing anything. When you have depression, this can be even more difficult.
I am finding it hard to write today because I don’t want to come across as a self-pitying whiner. It’s hard to express the effects of depression in words. I know there are things in my life that make me happy, yet there is still that nagging feeling that I am not good enough or I haven’t worked hard enough to achieve my work targets. I forget that I should be happy that even though my talk time (at the call center day job) was high today, I helped a lot of people through their queries and resolved a lot of issues. I managed to get out for my walk on my lunch today. I did feel better for it, but again I am left feeling as if I should have walked further and faster than I did.
The only way I can see to get over this low mood is to get on with it. I have included a link at the end of this post. I have read it and it does kind of make sense, although I draw the line at meditating every day. Maybe this is because I am unable to meditate due to the constant battering of thoughts pounding in my head.
I am also wondering about the effect of my diabetes on my mood. I find it very frustrating that I can’t seem to get my blood sugar stable. When I got up this morning at 7:30 am my blood sugar level was 8.2. I had my 2 sachets of porridge with a big spoonfull of jam at about 8:30. By 12:00 on my first break at the day job I was starting to get a little bit fuzzy so I tested agin and it was 6. I don’t know if blood sugar levels are suppoesed to be the same level for everyone. I was under the impression that blood sugar was ok as long as it didn’t fall below 4. I will have to find out more about this when I go to the DESMOD education programme that is run by the NHS. You can find more information on this programme at http://www.desmond-project.org.uk/aboutus-269.html
Well on to adding more thoughts to my overcrowded head as I continue to delve in to the world of SEO.
- 10 Questions to Help Depression (letlifeinpractices.com)