Day 3 and Depression

Make a start.

Sometimes that is the hardest part of doing anything. When you have depression, this can be even more difficult.

I am finding it hard to write today because I don’t want to come across as a self-pitying whiner. It’s hard to express the effects of depression in words. I know there are things in my life that  make me happy, yet there is still that nagging feeling that I am not good enough or I haven’t worked hard enough to achieve my work targets. I forget that I should be happy that even though my talk time (at the call center day job) was high today, I helped a lot of people through their queries and resolved a lot of issues. I managed to get out for my walk on my lunch today. I did feel better for it, but again I am left feeling as if I should have walked further and faster than I did.

The only way I can see to get over this low mood is to get on with it.  I have included a link at the end of this post. I have read it and it does kind of make sense, although I draw the line at meditating every day. Maybe this is because I am unable to meditate due to the constant battering of thoughts pounding in my head.

I am also wondering about the effect of my diabetes on my mood. I find it very frustrating that I can’t seem to get my blood sugar stable. When I got up this morning at 7:30 am my blood sugar level was  8.2.  I had my 2 sachets of porridge with a big spoonfull of jam at about 8:30. By 12:00 on my first break at the day job I was starting to get a little bit fuzzy so I tested agin and it was 6. I don’t know if blood sugar levels are suppoesed to be the same level for everyone.  I was under the impression that blood sugar was ok as long as it didn’t fall below 4. I will have to find out more about this when I go to the DESMOD education programme that is run by the NHS. You can find more information on this programme at http://www.desmond-project.org.uk/aboutus-269.html

Well on to adding more thoughts to my overcrowded head as I continue to delve in to the world of SEO.

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About iccle2013

Nearly 40 and starting to blog
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4 Responses to Day 3 and Depression

  1. chrisla912 says:

    Good for you for writing! I think you should pat yourself on the back for both the writing and the walk!

    • iccle2013 says:

      Thanks, some days are harder than others. Its good to know people are interested in what I have to say. Before long I hope to have less of the hard days. Thanks again for reading:)

  2. Emmy says:

    good blood sugar is 6 anything above and below that is a nono. i mean 7 yea is ok but higher isn’t esp. after fasting or over night.

    Diabetes is a difficult battle but once you get the hang of it and get used to the types of foods that maintain your glucose level you’ll be ok.

    keep your head up 🙂

    • iccle2013 says:

      Thanks for your comment. I think I will have to talk to my GP. My Dad has Diabetes too and he said my sugar should be lower, (his is 5.something,) but my GP said to aim for 7.5. I am still working on getting it consistently that low. I have noticed if it gets to around 5 I get a bit shaky.

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